Sunday, March 7, 2010

The Bigger Picture: From 39,000 feet

Settling in my seat, I inhaled, exhaled and clutched my baby kissing his soft cheeks as our plane began barreling down the runway.
As I felt the plane lift off the pavement, unmeditated and quietly, I began humming in baby EJ's ear, attempting to simultaneously soothe both him and me.

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God


The song simply began playing in my head just as my stomach began knotting during takeoff. I hadn't heard it in quite some time. But it comforted me.
I had been praying for God to give me something, anything to which I could cling that would calm my flying fears. I have always been a nervous flyer. That's an understatement actually. I am a fearful flyer. The kind who wants to hurl the entire week before she gets on a plane.
So for a solid week, I'd been pleading with God to give me peace, give me rest from my fears. My ridiculous fears. Though I know so many people who are scared of flying, and indeed, it is a pretty normal fear, I call it ridiculous because statistically it is one of the safest ways to travel. I don't become a ball of nerves before I get in the car everyday, and that's much more dangerous. But I have control over the car. Or so I tell myself I do. It's not true, of course. I have no more control over arriving safely at my destination via car than plane. I just think I do, and that's the real reason why my fear of flying is absurd.
It's a sad truth, but it takes being scared to remind me of how severely not in control I really am --literally and eternally and wholly and honestly so not in control.
So the song, the answer to my prayers for comfort, really reminded me about who is in control of everything -- literally and eternally and wholly and honestly so in control.

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God


And because He is in control, I should be able to rest in His power, in His perfect plans, in His excellence and supremacy.

All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God


And I need to rest in His supremacy and His awesome power while trusting that He is greater than I am and that His plans are greater than mine. And I even need to rest comfortably in knowing that I don't and just cannot understand His power or His plans. He is so big and so powerful and so great that I cannot conceive of it. That alone should give me incredible peace because that means I serve an amazing God.

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God*


And if He put the stars and the sky and knows them by name, I think, the least and the very most I can do, is trust that a God so powerful can take good care of little old me no matter if He takes me home or if He takes me Home.

*Chris Tomlin, Indescribable

4 comments:

  1. Beautifully said - and I LOVE that song! I've been relearning to TRUST too and to let Him be in control (even though He has been all along; I just keep trying to pretend I'm in control).

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  2. I so understand your fears. I'm to the point in the car where I want to e driving all the time, because then I can be in control.
    But I'm trying to step back.
    Love those lyrics.

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  3. Oh that's beautiful. Ironically, I'm watching a show right now about someone with a major flying phobia. I love how you got through it - that was absolutely perfect. I hope you had a great trip, too!

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  4. I'm so happy you were able to find some peace!

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