Sunday, May 29, 2011

365 Photo Project: Weeks 35, 36 and 37

Can I be honest?
day 236

How has it not been 365 days yet since I started this project?
day 237

Because, my goodness, I feel like it's been a lot longer than 255 days.
Day 238

With more than 100 days to go on my photo challenge, I'm feeling more than a little drained trying to keep up with the project.
day 239

It's not that I don't love the output; I do.
day 240

The pictures that have come out of the project are ones I adore, that flood my mind with good memories.
day 241

But {isn't there always a but when you have to talk about why you love what you love about something?}
day 242

But I'm finding myself grasping for the motivation to continue.
day 243

And, in that grasping, I'm questioning why I'm still doing the project when I'm feeling drained at trying to keep up.
day 244

And when anything in life I normally love becomes a chore, I think I owe it to myself to ask why I'm doing what I'm doing.
day 245

Because if I'm pressing on for the sake of pressing on instead of being driven by a love, a passion for this project then really, it's time to let go.
day 246

Let go of needing to have the perfect number of 365.
day 247

And just accept that maybe 255 is my number for this project.
day 248

So I'm taking the rest of the weekend
day 249

and probably next week, too {with the intent to finish Creativity Boot Camp}
day 250

to see if maybe a break is needed
day 251

or if I should just call it in the air
day 252

and embrace what's been
Day 5

and what is.
day 254

Because I {or you or anyone} shouldn't end up feeling weighted down by something I {or you or anyone} love.
day 255

So I know it's time to do some thinking and putting aside the vision of a perfect 365. Wish me happy soul searching?