Friday, May 13, 2011

Bigger Picture Moments: A Happy Medium

"I can't go with You and stay where I am ... so You move me." -- Susan Ashton

As if God flipped a light switched, we morphed nearly instantly from early spring to mid summer.

Last week it barely broke 60. This week, the thermometer spiked at 90.

John groaned loudly about how we seemingly skipped spring and all its lovely temperate 70-degree temperatures and mild sun -- jumped straight into July off the heals of a very cold and rainy April.

I wanted so badly to agree with him, shake an angry first toward the weather man and his forecasts and purse my lips in irritation.

So I did.

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That same evening, hurtful words flooded my ears from a loved one.

And scenes of really rocky seasons flashed around in my memory, a lightening storm of vivid emotions streaking in my mind’s eye, disappearing and reappearing over and over.

Heavy with thought and fresh with the sting of unmet expectations, I picked up a book, landed right in the middle of a page about thanksgiving and was immediately reminded to give thanks for everything.

Everything? I groaned inwardly.

Everything.

I don’t want to be thankful for the things I don’t like – the words that bite, the memories that sting, the cabin-fever-inducing weather.

I dug my heels in, thrust the weight of my body into my bed in much the way my preschooler does when he’s had enough and refuses to be moved.

Crying out to God, I asked him for some sort of ... happy medium.

I let the words roll around in my mind, swim through the thoughts and the hurt and the irritation.

A happy medium.

Is there such a thing?

Babies are too young or too old.

The weather is too hot or cold.

Life is too busy or too lackluster.

Husband needs too much and not enough.

Work is readily available or it takes too much time from family.

A happy medium doesn’t exist.

And in my mind:
“In everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.” {1 Thessalonians 5:18}

A happy medium is nearly impossible --
“All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.” 2 Corinthians 4:15

A happy medium is nearly impossible when I choose ungratefulness, when I dig my heels into the ground, throw my tantruming hands up in the air and refuse to be moved from my unthankful place.

“For everything created by God is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving.” {1 Timothy 4:4}

Sometimes, I can't flip the switch from complaint to gratitude on my own, so I'm left stumbling around in the stress of abundance or the depression of draught.

Sometimes I need Him to flip it for me, and only then does a happy medium appear.

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