Monday, December 19, 2011

Everyday Life: Arms tight

E. has been doing this thing for about a year now where he throws his arms around my neck and just squuuueeeeezes and squeezes and squeeeeeeezes until his little arms give out from hugging me so tightly.

An E-squeeze, captured last Thankgiving
It wasn't something I taught him; rather, he just decided one day that he'd hold on so tight and for so long nearly every time I picked him up that I couldn't possibly even think about putting him down.

And when he's got his arms secured around my neck in a big hug, I can't put him down.

Nor do I even want to.

I just want to hold him and love on him the way he needs to be loved.

During those ultra-long embraces, it's like he simply cannot get enough mommy. And then I simply cannot get enough of him.

A few nights ago* as I lie in bed thinking about my sweet boy who was actually lying beside me in the fierce hug position, I thought to myself this is what God wants from me.

He wants me to hold on and squueeeeze and squueeeeeze and squuuuuueeeze when I need to be loved on -- like I simply cannot get enough of Him.

Sometimes I look other places for that love.

But right now, this week especially, as I prepare my heart and help my family get into the right spirit to celebrate our Savior's birth, I know I really just need to throw my arms around His neck and hang on so tight and just squeeze.

I hope you will have a chance to do the same.

I'll be scheduling some of my favorite Advent posts this week, but, my main focus this week will be spent on making room and space in my heart for the Baby King.

Happy Advent, friends.

*This is an edited repost from last year around this time. I'm feeling even more the need, in the midst of healing and grief and trusting, to hang on to my Heavenly Father's neck and really know that impossibly beautiful and glorious gift He gave us in sending a King in the flesh.