Saturday, April 28, 2012

Everyday Life: As Planned

I woke to a face full of thrashing, kicking toddler feet and only pillows piled in the space my husband normally fills.

Not my favorite way to start the day.

In the quiet of Saturday morning, I walked downstairs with my toddler, hand-in-hand and found my best laid plans cracked at the foundation.

John, curled up in the guest bed, groaned that he didn't feel so well and that he wasn't going to make it through the day with the boystorm

which meant I wasn't going to make it through the day without them, as I'd planned.

Groggily, I scrambled to call our manager and coaches and let them know the conference was no longer a go for me explaining how we could proceed and then fueled straight into the normal week-day mom mode of unloading the dishwasher and preparing breakfast while fielding a hundred and one questions from my boys, my mind still in overdrive about trying to reorganize the day.

Until my oldest made a remark that spun around on my heels when he essentially asked what happened to our morning quiet time.

In the fullness of routine after plans diverted, frustration brimming over my plans having gone haywire, he reminded me I'd skipped over what is normally part of each day's plan. Quietly, and with a resolved deep breath in and out, I abandoned the clean dishes and snuggled up on the couch with the boys only to read from Jesus Calling:

"As you look into the day that stretches out before you, you see many choice-points along the way. The myriad possibilities these choices present can confuse you. Draw your mind back to the threshold of this day, where I stand beside you, lovingly preparing you for what is ahead.
You must make your choices one at a time, since each is contingent upon the decision that precedes it. Instead of trying to create a mental map of your path through this day, focus on My loving Presence with you. I will equip you as you go, so that you can handle whatever comes your way. Trust Me to supply what you need when you need it."
"Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord."—Lamentations 3:22–26
"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who trusts in Him!"- Psalm 34:8 
The God-breathed whispers of the divine are sometimes buried beneath my clean dishes, my frustration, my best laid plans scattered and dispersed.

And in the quiet of Saturday morning, my heart slowed to regular keeping time, mind untwisted, as I waited for His to unfold, fully assured that though Saturday wasn't supposed to go like this, it actually, really was.

Because when I make Him the priority in the plan, I've accomplished the greatest part of  His plan for the day.