Monday, April 30, 2012

Everyday Life: Listen to Your Mother

I adoringly watch two little boys sweetly play with each other on the floor, in a rare moment of quiet togetherness, only to witness my youngest flipchange the scene by whacking his unsuspecting brother in the head with a toy ax.

In these moments of broken peace and heavy tears encased by wailing, I feel terribly inadequate, under qualified: how could the great Editor in Chief have given me this long-term assignment in this thick, lush, beautiful, exotic jungle of motherhood?

How could I, a simple writer armed with the tools of pen and words, possibly raise babies into growing boys into men of faith, conviction and integrity?

The insecurity of my ability to mother well, to love fully, to practice graceful parenting is a swelling riptide that could easily sweep me away if I built my foundations on the shifting sands instead of the Rock.

And this feeling -- this what do I know of motherhood -- has left me quiet about a recent adventure on which I'm embarking with one of my most beautiful friends.

In six days -- SIX days -- I'll be standing in front of a microphone, the other half of our duet, giving voice to the loneliness that often accompanies early motherhood.

I'm slightly trembling at the thought of giving voice to my half of the words in front of a sold-out audience; I still often feel like the young mom who is fumbling through the dark to grasp onto new super powers. I still feel like I'm just beginning to grasp this mothering thing. I still feel like I'm growing and stretching beyond my skin's capacity to grow and stretch.

In the trembling, I'm reminded, though, of the heart of Listen to Your Mother: to give voice to the everydayness of motherhood, highlighting a colorful, vibrant span of experiences.







To listen to not just your mother, but our mothers, our community of mothers who are daily walking through life circumstances that seem anything but ideal while trying to lavish grace, love, truth on a new generation.

I find bravery in the stories of my cast mates.

I find courage in leadership of our directors.

I find inspiration in the vision of our visionary.

And I find a reason to embrace my own inadequacies because it is then that I rely on the power of the Spirit and His greatness -- not only carry me through each day of mothering, but also to carry me onto a stage {gulp!}and share my experience despite my own trembling, my own inadequacy and my own insecurity.

"And He said to me: 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.'" 2 Corinthians 12:9
I stand waiting at the edge.

At the edge of a new day of parenting

at the edge of a stage

And I am armed with words and Word, with first-hand experience of this luscious motherhood jungle

and all I must do is simply navigate each one step at a time.

My cast spotlight for the show is featured today, which makes this experience seem so much more real. Gift offerings of love and prayers coveted.

7 comments:

  1. Hyacynth, you guys are going to do so awesome. And your piece is perfect because it is one that EVERY mother can understand.

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  2. This is a beautiful post, Hy. You are going to be GREAT. All 17 of us will be figuratively holding hands for that 90 minutes as we jump together. It's going to be fabulous!

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  3. I am SO excited for this show. I will be there!

    Steph

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  4. You're going to be great. I really wish I could come see you!

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  5. You are going to do GREAT!!! I can't wait to see my two favorite friends on stage together. So excited for you both. Cheers to you!

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  6. Breathless in the best way. And the audience will be too! Brava, Mama!

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  7. You are going to do so well, do not worry! I have full confidence in you. (And really, isn't that the ultimate?! Ha.)

    I love your new look on the blog. Very clean and easy to navigate.

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