Monday, October 8, 2012

Everyday Life: Enough

It's not that I don't have enough hours in the day to cross off everything on the to-do list as a part-time working mom; it actually seems that most weeks, I have just enough time to accomplish the to-do list on a daily basis.

{In all honesty, this is especially true now that I have a lovely woman who comes to help me with the house every few weeks.}

For the most part, we seem to have found a groove that allows us to sanely maintain family life and inner lives in combination with my new job at church, John's work, our volunteer schedules, writing, Curves, real food meal preparations, laundry and G's everyday school.

But.

There are these dreams constantly swirling around in my head, deep pools of promising blue I love and long to swim around in during moments of free space or while we're driving, all peacefully staring out across the painted autumn landscape.
A homeschooling family that learns authentically all day, year round without the boys ever attending a physical school.  
A small, authentic farming family who raises animals and food the right way on a wide-open, sprawling prairie where other families are welcomed stretch their legs and learn about health, nutrition, real food and the intersection of the three.  
A novelist. 
A photographer who knows intimately how to use her camera. 
A retreat host with enough outdoor space and bedrooms and bathrooms for creative souls and seeking hearts to enjoy and soak in inspiration. 
It's these moments of daydream escape that I realize hours aren't the confines; rather, there simply aren't enough lifetimes to be everything I long to be.


It's then, too, that I must take a step back from the trees to see the forest.

And I give thanks for the abundance and blessing of a life with which I've already been blessed

and in which I'm already in the deeply vibrant and beautiful blues of swimming.



4 comments:

  1. I just had a conversation at our church retreat about this! Do you suppose in heaven we will get to be who we were meant to be in all fullness for forever...with unending time to discover and develop and serve and worship through ALL our individual gifts? I think so!

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    1. Kristina, I muse about this often. Yes, yes, yes ... in fullness there. We will be in fullness there.

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  2. I just had a conversation at our church retreat about this! Do you suppose in heaven we will get to be who we were meant to be in all fullness for forever...with unending time to discover and develop and serve and worship through ALL our individual gifts? I think so!

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  3. I often feel this way - that there is a list of 'who I should be' that doesn't have any chance of being fulfilled...

    I think God knew about those of us who try to cram in too much living into the hours we have and that's why we only get 24; likewise, we get only one lifetime, or we'd try to accomplish out too many goals for one person.

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There's nothing better than good conversation ... but not while talking to myself. Will you play a part in this discussion?

AND will you pretty please have your email linked to your account or leave it for me so I can respond?

Thanks for taking the time to make these thoughts into conversation.

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